Oh my ! What good news I have, dear ones. Yours truly just started a well-deserved Sabbatical from all the busyness of life. The word Sabbatical reminds me of the word Hysterical….not one or the same. But they rhyme. As sexual and menstrual. As love and dove. As Vagina and Regina. My Sisters in the Convent have just notified me that my request for Sabbatical has been approved. Yeah ! I am happy and I am sad. But the overwhelming feeling is JOY. JOY is the name of the game. The name of my game in the world. After all, I am a Sister of Perpetual Indulgence, aren’t I?
I know it sounds crazy, but the life of this little tropical flower in human flesh has catapulted deeper (ummmm, I like that word) into the realms of JOY and turned up for the better. I did not know it was possible for a human being to have access to an Infinite fountain of JOY….and, well, now I have found it. Actually, I have known this source of JOY since I turned 18 — a bunch of years ago. I just did not know that it was JOY. I thought it was just LOVE.
Want to know more about how I accidentally ran into it? Keep reading, baby dolls. Now that I have more time to reflect and enjoy my mature years as a gay nun in North America, I would like to share with the world a few things that wise people learn in different ways, through different paths, different journeys. Not that I am a bit wiser….I am becoming wiser…not just by having lived in two different Continents, speaking two languages, but also from life experiences, which lay in the border of the Transcendent and Sacred. Yes, Spirituality — the universal capacity of Human Beings to relate to other things — has become one of the most important sources of JOY for me. Not the only one, though. I am not sure now.
I cannot help but write from my own perspective on things, ideas, concepts. I am a human being….a human being having a life in the flesh and in the spirit, mortal and immortal, sinful and divine, delicious and vicious, with a tremendous capacity for doing good and evil. I know myself as a man, gifted with a life-giving penis, who happens to be gay, but I do know that I am HUMAN. I am the Son of a Man and a Woman. I am who am. This makes me One with the Divine and One with the Carnal or Material aspects of this amazing Universe. I am not separate. I am ONE. I AM.
Do you want to hear a bit of the story about how these thoughts and experiences came into being and emerged into awareness in my conscious mind? Read on, babies. You are up for a treat.
Sister Petunia Encarnata